her Redemption

she woke to the feeling of her blindfold and ball gag being removed. As she opened her sore eyes, she saw Him standing over her.

"Good morning, Anastasia. Are you ready to be Mine again?"

she was hurt. she was angry. she didn't know how to reply. Of course, she wanted to be His again, but she also felt betrayed.

"Sir, i don't understand why You abandoned me. Why was my mistake so bad that You could reject me completely?"

"anastasia, my love, how do you not already know the answers? Did you not abandon me when you chose to meet Derrick without telling me? Did you not reject me completely during the time you were flirting and having lunch with him? I have nothing against your flirting, having lunch, or otherwise enjoying yourself with other men, so long as you always remain Mine, but today, I believe you went beyond that. I believe you stopped being Mine for a while. I believe you have things backwards, my dearest. I am the one who needs to know how you could do these things to Me. I need to know whether you really want to be Owned -- because I do not believe you acted like it today. you cannot simply put on the collar and pretend to be Owned when you are home. Either you are Owned or not - all day, every day."

The words fell on her like a ton of bricks. He was right, of course. she did not feel, or act, Owned during her time with Derrick. she was so overwhelmed with the feeling of control she had over the situation that she hadn't even considered the manner in which she should exercise that control. she had done what she wanted to do, when she should have done what He wanted, or at least what she thought he wanted. Instead of acting only to please Him, she had acted only to please herself.

she wanted to cry some more, but her tear ducts were dry. "i am sorry, Sir. If you will still have me, i will try harder to be a good girl for you. Please just do not leave me again."

"anastasia, my most prized possession, I never left you. Although I wanted you to understand what it meant to be unOwned, how I felt to know you had acted outside of my control today, I was never away from you. After tying you to the bench and blinfolding and gagging you, I walked to the front door and slammed it. Then, I quietly removed My shoes and snuck back into the room. See that chair in the corner?" she looked to where He motioned and saw a metal folding chair. "I sat there all evening and all night without making a noise. I watched you cry and I watched you sleep. You were never alone."

Somehow, she found she did still have more tears. she wept openly. she had been so worried about what He had been thinking and where He had gone when He left her. she was so relieved to hear He had been with her the whole time, she was speechless.

"anastasia, I am so proud of you for how you handled yourself yesterday. Now, I just need you to be able to do the same thing for Me, instead of yourself. When Derrick or one of those men wants something, you need to think of how I would want you to respond, how I would expect you to respond, and then act accordingly. Not doing whatever you want, but acting like you are Owned. Is that what you want? Is that what you are prepared to do?"

"Yes, Frederick, my Master, my love. i was terribly selfish yesterday. i was wrong. i want to be Owned by You. i want nothing but to please You. Please let me try again."

"That is all I need to hear, anastasia." With that, He picked up the collar and began fastening it around her neck. "I believe you and I trust you. you never again have to tell me about any upcoming meetings with Derrick or any other men. I see now you are much stronger than I had let Myself believe. you are much less susceptible to men like that who try to coerce you. I will be here for you if you want My support or protection, but I will not impose it on you. I trust you to let Me know when you need me." As He finished, He unfastened the shackles from her arms and legs.

He looked at her with more love in His eyes than she had ever seen before in her life. she was so happy. Happy to be His. Happy with her newfound confidence. she felt that everything was the way it was supposed to be, and she basked in that feeling.

Seeing the look on her face, Frederick inquired, "Tell me what you're thinking, anastasia?"

"Sir, i was just wondering if there is anything i can do for You right now to please You."

"Well, anastasia," He said as a wicked smile crept across His face, "now that you mention it, yes, I believe there is."